leave the failures.

i can't expect anything anymore.

i guess i suck. yeah even my mum thinks so to.

the dream was really true i guess..

i finally found out the reasons why i read manga.

shit...i just read aishiteruze baby and i felt like crying...

msn convo just now:
harusuki 誰まだれも知らない秘密♥|| I think I know why manga captures me...how could I have not known? says:
oh
coz i realize
the purpose and msg of the mangaka
and how the world seems to be so cold
that no one notices the little things anymore
Miyoshi¤Team You Change Colour CAPnap|| writes:

Miyoshi¤Team You Change Colour CAPnap|| says:
Cold
I agree
harusuki 誰まだれも知らない秘密♥|| I think I know why manga captures me...how could I have not known? says:
and how the manga can be a better counsellor than a real one
because the mangaka tries to make it realistic without going overboard
Miyoshi¤Team You Change Colour CAPnap|| says:
Fruits Basket?
Ouran?
harusuki 誰まだれも知らない秘密♥|| I think I know why manga captures me...how could I have not known? says:
yeah
Miyoshi¤Team You Change Colour CAPnap|| says:
I think Ouran is quite overboard
harusuki 誰まだれも知らない秘密♥|| I think I know why manga captures me...how could I have not known? says:
i meant fb
lol
and of course some manga is for laughs
like for people who are too stressed :]
Miyoshi¤Team You Change Colour CAPnap|| says:
Ah
-scratches-
harusuki 誰まだれも知らない秘密♥|| I think I know why manga captures me...how could I have not known? says:
but yeah mostly the first reason
i just realized...

sigh..and probably another reason about reading...losing myself and not thinking about the mess of life I have made..

...my vision is blurring...

Will I ever see the light?

"

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
...Leave out all the rest"