All I can say is that I'm totally screwed for all my exams.
Never finished both Geog and Hist paper...if i get an A1 for both subjects is a miracle...
And lit...don't even think about it.
And yesterday me and carolyn had a nice talk over msn. And it occurred to me that my sister never said a joke straight in my face before. She always tells everything to my brother. The last time we did was most probably one night when I was p5..
I think I must be in denial to think that I have everything in my life in control. Which in fact is a total lie. And with regards to Grace and Carolyn's blog, I totally agree. If everyone never trusted anyone, we'd all be cramming in Woodbridge. Instead of this insane education system. Which is why we all need to depend on each other..no one is as strong as they seem to be. Even if they tell you they are all fine. Cause we're all in denial.
All in all, i think im screwed for the EOYs. Wonder if i'll ever get promoted.
Then there's the thing about being in 3G or 3T and my subj combi..
And my laptop is sort of confiscated...so...I can't post much till the end of exams...
I think something is wrong with me. Seriously. I just thought gall bladder was bile gladder... >_>" *** Ack, I just realized that i can totally skip chp 1,[most of]5 and 6 for geog!
so that leaves me with only chp 7, GM food and GR!
I might make notes and post them here XD . . . Here's a guide on how to download Finalstory:
[note: do not download the full file from their website...kind of impossible since they use megaupload]
I'm lvl 183 now :] *** Sigh...suddenly lost all motivation to study liao...
And I think I'm going to develop a phobia for speaking in class...
And to whoever that I daoed/emoed to, sorry..kinda tired and feeling low..
Reminiscence.
I still remember the old faraway primary school days, when it used to be only the few of us staying back. Sarah and Samantha were best friends, and so i usually tagged along since no one else stays back during primary school. . . . Samantha: "Hey Zhi, who's your best friend?"
Me: "Uh..."
Sarah: "You must have a best friend! Everyone has a best friend."
Me: "Um...[after much hesitation]God?"
Well...thinking back...I think I answered them that way because I really didn't know what to say. What exactly is a 'best friend'? What defines the criteria of a 'best friend'? Who really is my 'best friend'?
zzz why am I remembering this all of a sudden?
Because I suddenly felt very stupid in history..
Thank goodness recess was right after history, I think I would have died if the next lesson was LA or Chinese...
I guess I'm wondering how I got into SBC huh?
it's 11:04 PM now on Tuesday, September 30, 2008
awkward silence...
Have you ever felt weird if no one's talking?
And how sometimes some people start to avoid you or brush your comments aside...
okay maybe for the latter its more of feeling hurt emotionally than weird..
So you try to keep the person entertained and joke more to fill the silence, but only to run out of stuff to say...and then it returns to the awkward silence again..and maybe find yourself being thought as "weirdo/loser/lame/shut up" [the list goes on...] which is the exact opposite of the goal you are trying to achieve and the person has a bad impression of you.
Then the person starts to avoid you and you get more hurt and down...
I don't know but I don't like silence. Or maybe that's just me. Which brings me to the conclusion that music is STILL the soul of [my] life(: . . . Today, during Bio, while copying Bio corrections diligently [as usual], Mrs Cheong said something about fertilizers when the question she was referring to was the plant question. Then Charlotte and Grace burst out in laughter and I was like huh? Then Mrs Cheong said that it wasn't THAT kind of fertilizATION...and I still didn't get the joke [I was thinking why was plant fertilizers so funny?]. Then Grace told me then I finally got it [heh, maybe I'm still quite innocent? xP] . . . During Geog, Mrs Tang was really funny! I think I will always remember this even when I grow old and [hopefully not] turn bald. "Desperation is the mother of all inventions" Hahaha xD. Then I heard all the variations that came from misunderstanding [like information ;P] which made it funnier [heh]
When she went through the neurological effects the Hong Kong Red Tide had on animals, I was trying very very hard to imagine cats shrieking and jumping into the sea to drown for no rhyme or reason and failed. I don't know how cats shriek, which leaves my imagination high and dry...or thinking about birds randomly falling from the sky [lol?]
Which reminds me of the time when a bird [sparrow?] got smashed on my dad's windscreen on the highway. The bird was flying in the perpendcular direction of the highway and never realized it got smacked...the body looked very smashed and liquid started oozing from the bird? [shudders] Then my dad just shrugged and cleaned the windscreen with the wiper... . . . Just now, I was looking at Monday's DL [couldn't find it yesterday] and I saw one of my favourite songs as the top download! -squeals-
The Man that can't be moved by the script
Going back to the corner where I first saw you, Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move, Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand, Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am, Some try to hand me money they don't understand, I'm not...broke I'm just a broken hearted man, I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do, How can I move on when I'm still in love with you...
Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me, And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be, Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet, And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
So I'm not moving... I'm not moving.
Policeman says son you can't stay here, I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year, Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows, If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go.
Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me, And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be, Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet, And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
So I'm not moving... I'm not moving.
I'm not moving... I'm not moving.
People talk about the guy Who's waiting on a girl... Oohoohwoo There are no holes in his shoes But a big hole in his world... Hmmmm
and maybe I'll get famous as man who can't be moved, And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news, And you'll come running to the corner... Cos you'll know it's just for you
I'm the man who can't be moved I'm the man who can't be moved...
Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me, And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be, Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet, And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street. [Repeat in background]
So I'm not moving... I'm not moving.
I'm not moving... I'm not moving.
Going back to the corner where I first saw you, Gonna camp in my sleeping bag not I'm not gonna move.
yay! I might listen to their other song we cry by the same artist. they look like potential favourites ;)
I have yet to finish notes for all my subjects T_T I hope I finish them soon!
[scurries away to start on Geography pollution]
Is it just me or there is nothing to study for chapters 1 and 5[only a bit of the end] of the textbook for Geography?
it's 8:20 PM now on Wednesday, September 24, 2008
You have been disconnected from the line
sigh...
darn tired today...
nearly fell asleep in class!zzz
haha if there were no humour in class i would have died!
During bio, while counting the time till recess, charlotte's random question got me interested in class again [hehz]
@char: where in the world did you hear 'bumfluff' from? LOL! . . . then during physics [an absolute subject for 'A' levels] mr lim was so funny! when he did the electrocuted action i almost died laughing! then when charlotte asked him to do it again, i had almost wanted to ask him for an encore too [which added to the humour, started to laugh all over again when i tried stopping]
did i ever mention that i like our physics group(:?
and of course, i love 2g too :D
wa, tmr have to meet up for guides to collect 5 boxes of unsold cookies :X [hope i don't forget]
who wants guides cookies can get from me (:
***
Song of the day-The Last Goodnight's Pictures of you, pictures of me [which i will use for the credits for this year's class vid, don't forget to pass me all your photos :D]:
"Pictures Of You"
This is the clock upon the wall This is the story of us all This is the first sound of a newborn child, Before he starts to crawl This is the war that's never won This is a soldier and his gun This is the mother waiting by the phone, Praying for her son
[Chorus] Pictures of you, pictures of me Hung upon your wall for the world to see Pictures of you, pictures of me Remind us all of what we used to be
There is a drug that cures it all Blocked by the governmental wall We are the scientists inside the lab, Just waiting for the call This earthquake weather has got me shaking inside I'm high up and dry
[Chorus]
Confess to me, every secret moment Every stolen promise you believed Confess to me, all that lies between us All that lies between you and me
We are the boxers in the ring We are the bells that never sing There is a title we can't win no matter How hard we might swing
[Chorus]
[Chorus Repeat]
go listen, its nice(:
@lau & enqi: vk 43 is out! 50 pages that I read in the com lab [heh]
@grace: omg i'm so sorry! normally i don't feel my phone vibrating so i never realise i have missed calls/smses! >_< sorry for pangseh-ing you in the library! me and jelly went back to class after she went to the toilet. we waited for you in the bookshop at first :X
after the EOYs, who wants to play finalstory? [maple private server] crazy drops and exp >_>"
i better start studying and sleep early...if not i will seriously not register anything in my bed tomorrow and zone out...
[argh now the blog cant post 4...-_-"]
it's 8:37 PM now on Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Why is life so tiring...
I try not to think about the various mistakes and stumbles I made recently...the more you think about it, the more stupid your mistakes seem and all the more you wish you didn't do it...which ends up in a paradox and gets you nowhere but crying.
Have you ever been alone in an empty room? When you lie on the bed and you can't sleep. There's this loud buzzing noise that is so loud that once you close your eyes it gets even louder, so you can't sleep...
Which is why terms such as silent screams, screaming silence, loud silence and the variations come about.
I can quite relate to the Jonas Brothers song:
Hold on We don't have time left to regret (hold on) It will take more than common sense (hold on) So stop your wondering take a stand (hold on) There's more to life than just to live (hold on)
'cause an empty room can be so loud It's too many tears to drown them out So hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on
One single smile a helping hand It's not that hard to be a friend So don't give up stand 'til the end There's more to life than just to live
'cause an empty room can be so loud It's too many tears to drown them out So hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on
When you love someone And they break your heart don't give up on love Have faith, restart Just hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on
When it falls apart And your feeling lost All your hope is gone don't forget to hold on, hold on
'cause an empty room can be so loud It's too many tears to drown them out So hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on
When you love someone And they break your heart don't give up on love Have faith, restart Just hold on, hold on
'cause an empty room can be so loud It's too many tears to drown them out So hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on
When you love someone And they break your heart don't give up on love Have faith, restart Just hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on
...which is where the blog name comes from.
So whenever you're down and lonely, don't ever stay alone in a room to let your mind wander. Remember that music is the soul of life :)
Oh, did I forget to mention how my brother is so irritating? Always backing up on his promises zzz...-_-"
And today's bio was so gory...I think I got seriously freaked out...I never knew abortion was like that X_x I don't want to even imagine or find out if a fetus can feel at such a young age [esp. since Mrs Cheong said that the fetus can sense the invasion of territory and moves away to avoid the metal instrument]
Ack, better go study. As well as clear all the darn accumulating homework Dx
I might be 乖 and do the ”近朱者赤,近墨者黑”/”铁杵磨出绣花针”essay since i have some research done :D *** UPDATED LIST OF MELAMINE CONTAMINATED PRODUCTS!
Products Recalled - Melanine Contaminated
BRAND II ITEM DESC 1 BAIRONG GRAPE CREAM CRACKERS 2 DOVE H/NUT ALM & RAISIN CHOC 3 DOVE HAZELNUT CHOC 4 DOVE MILK CHOCOLATE 5 Dreyers Choc Cake Ice Cream 887ml 6 Dreyers Choc Cake Ice Cream 887ml 7 Dreyers Cookie & Cream Ice Cream 887ml 8 Dreyers Cookie & Cream Ice Cream 887ml 9 Dreyers Mint Chip Ice Cream 887ml 10 Dreyers Mint Chip Ice Cream 887ml 11 Dreyers Rocky Road Ice Cream 887ml 12 Dreyers Rocky Road Ice Cream 887ml 13 Dreyers Strawberry Ice Cream 887ml 14 Dreyers Strawberry Ice Cream 887ml 15 Dreyers Toast Almond Ice Cream 887ml 16 Dreyers Toast Almond Ice Cream 887ml 17 Dreyers Vanilla Ice Cream 887ml 18 Dreyers Vanilla Ice Cream 887ml 19 DUTCH LADY STER M LF BANANA 20 DUTCH LADY STER MK LF PLAIN 21 DUTCH LADY STER MK LF CHOC 22 DUTCH LADY STER MK LF SBERRY 23 DUTCH LADY STER M LF HNYDEW 24 DUTCH LADY STER M LF HNYDEW 25 DUTCH LADY STER MILK PLAIN 26 DUTCH LADY STER MK LF CHOC 27 DUTCH LADY STER MK LF SBERRY 28 DUTCH LADY STER M LF BANANA 29 FIRST CHOICE CALCIUM SESAME CRACKERS 30 FIRST CHOICE CALCIUM SALTINE CRACKERS 31 FIRST CHOICE CALCIUM S ONION CRACKERS 32 FIRST CHOICE CALCIUM SEAWEED CRACKERS 33 GINBIS PARTY ANIMAL BUTTER BISC 34 GINBIS PARTY ANIMAL SEAWEED BIS 35 GINBIS PARTY ANIMAL CNUT 36 GINBIS ANIMAL BISCUIT 37 Koala Cocoa Biscuit 40g 38 Koala Cocoa Biscuit 40g 39 KRAFT OREO WAFER STICKS 18S 40 KRAFT OREO WAFER STICKS 5S 41 KRAFT OREO W/STICK WH CHOC 18S 42 KRAFT OREO W/STICK WH CHOC 5S 43 Lotte Koala Cocoa Funpack 210g 44 Lotte Koala Cocoa Funpack 210g 45 M & M Chocolate Peanut 200g 46 M & M Chocolate Peanut 200g 47 M&M CHOC CANDIES PLAIN% 48 M&M CHOC CANDIES PEANUT% 49 M&M CHOC CANDIES-PLAIN 50 M&M CHOC CANDIES-PEANUTS 51 M&M FUNSIZE MILK 52 M&M FUNSIZE PEANUT 53 M&M Chocolate Candies Plain 200g 54 M&M Chocolate Candies Plain 200g 55 MEIJI UJIKINTOKI 2978 56 MEIJI UMAKABO CHOCOLATE 57 MEIJI FAMILY PACK-GREEN TEA 58 MEIJI CHESTNUT & REDBEAN 59 MENTOS BOTTLE YOGHURT PROMO PK 60 MENTOS BOTTLE YOGHURT 61 Monmilk BREAKFAST MILK MALT 62 Monmilk BREAKFAST MILK WALNUT 6S 63 Monmilk BREAKFAST MILKMALT 6S 64 Monmilk CHOCOLATE MILK 6S 65 Monmilk COFFEE MILK 6S 66 Monmilk HI CAL LOW FAT 67 Monmilk HI CAL LOW FAT MILK 68 Monmilk HI CAL LOW FAT MILK 6S 69 Monmilk HI CAL MILK 70 Monmilk HI CAL MILK 6S 71 Monmilk MILK DELUXE 12S 72 Monmilk PURE MILK 73 Monmilk PURE MILK 74 Monmilk PURE MILK 6S 75 MonmilkBREAKFAST MILK WALNUT 76 NABISCO IN A BISKIT CHICKEN 77 NESTLE NES D/STICK MINI VANILLA 78 NESTLE NES DISTICK MINI CHOCO 79 NESTLE MILK & BERRY STARS CRL 80 NO FRILLS WAFER BLUEBERRY 81 NO FRILLS WAFER CHOCOLATE 82 NO FRILLS WAFER PEANUT 83 Orion Fresh Pie 138g 84 Orion Fresh Pie 138g 85 Orion Tiramisu 138g 86 Orion Tiramisu 138g 87 PEI TIAN CREAM BISCUIT 88 Rabbit Milk Sweet 150g 89 SILANG NATURAL OAT CRACKER 90 Snicker Candies Funsize 240g 91 Snicker Candies Funsize 240g 92 SNICKERS PEANUT CHOCOLATE% 93 SNICKERS SNACKSIZE BARS PNUT 5 94 TAKE ONE BABY BITES 24S 95 TAKE ONE BABY BITE CK VG 96 TAKE ONE BABY BITE CARROT 97 Vitasoy Chocolate Drink 4s 125ml 98 Vitasoy Chocolate Drink 4s 125ml 99 Vitasoy Melon Soya Bean Milk 4s 125ml 100 Vitasoy Melon Soya Bean Milk 4s 125ml 101 Vitasoy Q Soya Milk 4s 125ml 102 Vitasoy Q Soya Milk 4s 125ml 103 WANT WANT MILK CANDY 104 Want Want Flavoured Milk 250ml 105 Yili Hi Cal Low Fat Milk 1L 106 Yili Hi Cal Low Fat Milk 6s 250ml 107 Yili Hi Cal Milk 1L 108 Yili Hi Cal Milk 6s 250ml 109 Yili Pure Milk 1L 110 Yili Pure Milk 6s 250ml 111 Youcan Masterbean Multipack 112 Youcan Passion Multipack 113 Youcan Silk Sliced and Passion Strawberry 114 Youcan Stawberry Multipack 115 Youcan Traditional Sesame Multipack 4s 116 Youcan Unusual Multipack 4s
****
Sigh...last time China's problem with the 黑心 toys, then the 黑心 cartoon coloured bath towels...then right after the Olympics this happened...millions would have lost faith in China products just when we thought better of them >_>"
it's 6:09 PM now on Monday, September 22, 2008
talk
hello,
Chen Zhi Lin
02041994
MGSian
MG gg
4t'09 3t'09 2g'08 1g'07
Mapler
Translator
Minor-Gamer
Joint owner of VertigoManga
wants
a new pair of earphones
maple 4th job
good results
to be in 3g with 2g'08
to finish homework on time
do calligraphy
play the piano
ayaka's albums
ayumi hamasaki's albums
crumpler bag