Cause an empty room can be so loud

Home sweet home...not!

2009-12-17T00:28:00.002+08:00

Back in Singapore...where all the fairytale stories have to abruptly end and reality sinks back in...with its teeth and grips firmly...never letting go.

To all who feel like this right now...
-You are not alone.

dead...

2009-12-14T15:36:00.001+08:00

HAHA i haven't updated in ages!

still contemplating whether i should post something about my trip to japan! xD

(so dead...need to finish up my ROCs reflections and submit x.x

I need to go back to school to return the CDs too...sigh

Currently in my grandparent's house in Malaysia now(THANK GOD FOR THE WIFI <3)

Sighs...my translation speed has dropped...I think its cause I'm too lazy to articulate my translations...so I just read it as it is (the translations are automatically in my head the moment I read Chinese...most of the time)

Oh and I dedicated a whole new blog for origami crane folding! (:
http://www.foldacrane.blogspot.com

I should go sleep now X.x everyone's zzzing except me...it's awfully quiet now...nights!

2009-08-04T23:45:00.003+08:00

Monday we learnt hip hop ;o damn cool la! luckily im not in street jazz xD but still...HIP HOP HIP HOP!!! :D:D:D:D

Did I forget to mention how tall our PM is?

Spin the coin; Drown the tears

2009-08-01T01:20:00.010+08:00

Quote: "The sound of resonating silence soothes my ears but will hurt in yours." - Guan Hoe

Ah. There were quite a few times I wanted to blog but got all lazy to :/ the login thingy is really mafan with the number of gmail accs I have to check (usually i just leave myself on 3t's physics gmail acc)

So finally here's first post after a billion years (: Maybe it shows that my dislike for writing long essays is reflecting my laziness to blog...(?) Doubt anyone would read my blog anyway. Nothing to read in the first place...

Sometimes I start to wonder if I can do anything at all. Screw ups seem to be my current forte...

Sometimes I can cry over nothing. I wonder what's happening to me..

Is all the classes having the same NRIC making time slot? :/ If not NDP auditions for the sec 3s have to be reshuffled...

Even though I have lots to say maybe they won't be appropriate so I won't put it here...probably mull over it and get all depressed and stuff...or alternatively rant to random people who are willing to listen to the sad and boring story of my _____ life.

Isn't that what life is all about?

Note to self: Rush out minutes and email the task list.

Waiting for the coin to stop spinning...I feel exhausted and I could sleep for a billion years.

Physics today was awesome! I hope Mr Liu isnt strict and gives me full marks 8D First ever physics that I feel absolutely euphoric after completing. This topic is so awesome!

Today me and jelly and en went to coro plaza, had lunch at new york new york after doing e math aa.

we were talking about random things before suddenly talking about our future school and subject combis.

which somehow made me feel insecure about my own. Do I even have something I'm good at that I want to further my studies on and work based on that skill?

Sorry sheryl :/ I'm not as perfect as you think I am. But thanks for indulging me with the encouragements (:

I better go back to sleep. Before I have another nightmare about school and that I have to go marching tmr.

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(Btw Guan Hoe, I do like ur prev msn dn (: )
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LOLOLOL. Can't stop laughing man xD

Today I decided to wear a new white blouse I bought recently with a pair of sort of formal shorts. Then I decided to wear my golden pair of shoes (not really heels) cos I have no flats and slippers which I usually wear don't match the formal ensemble. I added a silver star chain belt with my blouse so it didnt look too plain.

After chinese tuition, I took the MRT home. I caught sight of a nice long white shirt with frills at the bottom and grey stars all over it. I have that impulse to buy it >< ITS STARS FOR GOODNESS SAKE D:. (Maybe I'll buy it tmr after my physics tuition :P)

Anyway here's the funny part. After I reached Jurong Point, a guy handing out jewellery flyers shove the flyer into my hand. LOL. Usually never happens cos I wear what t-shirts and shorts/jeans with slippers. But that was quite amusing.

After that, I took my usual route from JP2 to JP1, having to pass by this row of new shops. When I pass by this shop that has been promoting their new moisturiser thingy for the past entire month that usually ignores me (cos of my usual outfit) has one of their salesgirl approaching me and asking if i wanted a free sample. Now THAT was EPIC. I couldn't help laughing inside while she explained to me in perfect chinese with an accent at a pace almost as quick as tze shien's(yeah she's frm china) how her new moisturizer works wonders, I was thinking inside: "Lol...Even if I'm kind of amused that you think that I have the purchasing power to buy your moisturiser, I still don't." But I decided to be polite and wait for her to finish, nodding at times when she paused inbetween. (Sorry I do understand her words in chinese, just that she was too quick and I was busy laughing so I can't rmb the exact chinese phrases she used. I think in english all the time so I do translations in my head @@) Then she tested the moisturiser on my hand (LOL, she must have really bought my "failed attempt to look mature(?)>>Only claudia, diana, lau and jelly can REALLY pull the look off" and started telling me how it has no alcohol and something... (I'm guessing some kind of chemical) so I wouldn't develop allergies when using this moisturiser, saying that it's almost like water. She then says that it doesn't smell and asks me to try smelling it. So I suppressed my laughter, smiled politely and did what I was told. I briefly agreed (though there was this faint smell that did smell quite nice), then she starts commenting on my pimples (!!!!) and that her moisturiser would do wonders to my oily skin X: But I just nodded and went along (heh.) Then she asked if I wanted to try one of the supplementary facial products and was heading into her shop to get it when I replied, "不用紧，我会考虑。”

She smiled widely and said something like thank you, take your own time, have a nice day (and hope to see you again - Like I would really come back later or tomorrow to get it.) Nice customer service though. Maybe I'll buy that moisturiser after 5 years when I actually start working.

The result of my brother's stupidity

2009-04-26T10:55:00.006+08:00

He murdered all the cute guppies -.-

From this pic a few months back:

To this just now:

What an idiot...overcrowding doesn't help...and my mum wasted $50 on this new tank... >.>"

Investment? Ha! Just leave it to the experts, little bro.

Jealousy brews

2009-03-23T23:24:00.003+08:00

):

I want to get these pretty skins so badly! If anyone uses paypal/does online shopping can help me? I'll pay you back ._.

Ipod touch:
http://store.garskin.com/cart.php?target=product&product_id=2077&category_id=86
http://store.garskin.com/cart.php?target=product&product_id=2076&category_id=86
Vaio:
http://store.garskin.com/cart.php?target=product&product_id=2469&category_id=97
http://store.garskin.com/cart.php?target=product&product_id=2470&category_id=97 http://store.garskin.com/cart.php?target=product&product_id=2602&category_id=97

Yeah I'm a sucker for anime things (even though i like the other designs also)

maybe the laptop one i'll get something else. That's if I can even get it ._.

Campfire woes

2009-03-07T20:56:00.003+08:00

ah...just now i was picking sticks for the campfire with my maid :x then got so many ppl looking at us >.> even this little kid was pestering his mum to tell him what we were doing across the street hais.

then this cute old man came over with his cute terrier and asked why we were doing this.

him: “你们要收这个做什么？”

me: “做 Campfire."

him: -stares blankly- "Barbeque?"

me：“不是。”

him: "火药？[dynamite]"

me: "不是！营。。。营火会!”

him: “为什么不用大剪刀？这样用手把很辛苦不是吗？”

me: “不小心忘了带下来。”

After telling my maid, she started laughing and said that scissors would take an even longer time [i kinda agree oops.] ~_~ he must have been thinking about shears then [heh.] oh well. Wish our campfire will be a success! 8D

the best change is not to change

2009-02-22T23:46:00.002+08:00

i never ever end up finishing anything... (this blog included)

this blog is ancient history man! ): but i don't wanna see it die coz i love the url too much! (don't you agree it sounds so cool rolling off your tongue? way cooler than 'resonating silence' ;D

Carolyn's blog so so fun to read ~_~ i'll read her blog after CT week heh xD

Just now on msn:

|Carolyn|I feel so safe in your arms.|When I'm with you.
Haha, your phrases are very you leh (:

CAROLYN!! WHAT DO YOU MEAN??? DX

i really really want to know what you mean...i'm getting frustrated trying to think about what you mean...

PIANO FEVER

2008-11-05T14:22:00.001+08:00

I wanna learn piano but i dun think i will practise >_>"

so cool sia...I wanna learn songs like truth by arashi and Yiruma and asterisk T_T and many more...

T_T

2008-10-19T17:17:00.001+08:00

shit i screwed up the exams

21/28!!!

below average!!

ARGH

and i am going to take full geog and half lit...

hope i don't falter

I wish I will top maths next year..

I WILL WORK TOWARDS THAT GOAL.

and thanks for all who tagged xD

leave out all the rest...

2008-10-14T22:53:00.032+08:00

leave the failures.

i can't expect anything anymore.

i guess i suck. yeah even my mum thinks so to.

the dream was really true i guess..

i finally found out the reasons why i read manga.

shit...i just read aishiteruze baby and i felt like crying...

msn convo just now:
harusuki 誰まだれも知らない秘密♥|| I think I know why manga captures me...how could I have not known? says:
oh
coz i realize
the purpose and msg of the mangaka
and how the world seems to be so cold
that no one notices the little things anymore
Miyoshi¤Team You Change Colour CAPnap|| writes:

Miyoshi¤Team You Change Colour CAPnap|| says:
Cold
I agree
harusuki 誰まだれも知らない秘密♥|| I think I know why manga captures me...how could I have not known? says:
and how the manga can be a better counsellor than a real one
because the mangaka tries to make it realistic without going overboard
Miyoshi¤Team You Change Colour CAPnap|| says:
Fruits Basket?
Ouran?
harusuki 誰まだれも知らない秘密♥|| I think I know why manga captures me...how could I have not known? says:
yeah
Miyoshi¤Team You Change Colour CAPnap|| says:
I think Ouran is quite overboard
harusuki 誰まだれも知らない秘密♥|| I think I know why manga captures me...how could I have not known? says:
i meant fb
lol
and of course some manga is for laughs
like for people who are too stressed :]
Miyoshi¤Team You Change Colour CAPnap|| says:
Ah
-scratches-
harusuki 誰まだれも知らない秘密♥|| I think I know why manga captures me...how could I have not known? says:
but yeah mostly the first reason
i just realized...

sigh..and probably another reason about reading...losing myself and not thinking about the mess of life I have made..

...my vision is blurring...

Will I ever see the light?

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
...Leave out all the rest"

Elation

2008-10-10T22:11:00.004+08:00

Heh!

I'm so happy today!

Even though I didn't go out with Lau, I went out with yunhua and it was soooo fun!

:D

I got the stuff I wanted too! sweet!

And I'm so happy because yunhua said that I was one of the few people who made her 4 years in secondary school pleasurable! :D yaaaaaaaay! \o/

[feels loved]

:D

I got my new headphones and Jonas brothers CD :O

But the sad thing was that we didnt have enough time to take neos Dx

Hope we can go out again :]

And Lau, you owe me one for scaring me out of my wits into thinking that I left you downstairs for 2 hours...
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I had the weirdest dream. Laoshi starred in my nightmares X_x...she said that no matter how much effort i put in, [which i really did try my best] my yilunwens still sucked. SHE COMMENTED IN ENGLISH ON ALL MY PAPERS [freaked out] phrases like "tough luck" and "No matter how hard you try, you still won't be able to write it" were on every single yilunwen! [breaks in cold sweat]

I think its a foreshadowing for the chinese paper 1 EOY X_x!!!

AHHHH

I hope no more teachers star in my nightmares anymore Dx

turn up the volume

2008-10-10T00:48:00.002+08:00

more music to drown yourself out :]

Verse 1

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
Verse 2

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
Chorus

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Verse 3

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive

Chorus

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Chorus

I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

"Leave Out All The Rest"

I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what I made

I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are

I close both locks below the window.
I close both blinds and turn away.
Sometimes solutions aren't so simple.
Sometimes goodbye's the only way.

And the sun will set for you,
The sun will set for you.
And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in grey,
And the sun will set for you.

Pink cards and flowers on your window,
Your friends all plead for you to stay.
Sometimes beginnings aren't so simple.
Sometimes goodbye's the only way.

And the sun will set for you,
The sun will set for you.
And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in grey,
And the sun will set for you.

And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in grey,
And the sun will set for you.

[Guitar solo]

And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in grey,
And the sun will set for you.

What I've Done -Linkin Park
In this farewell,
there's no blood,
there's no alibi.
Cause I've drawn regret,
from the truth,
of a thousand lies.
So let mercy come,
and wash away...

What I've done,
I'll face myself,
To cross out
What I've become,
Erase myself,
And let go of course,
What I've done.

Put to rest,
what you thought of me.
Well I clean this slate,
with the hands of uncertainty
So let mercy come,
and wash away...
http://www.free-lyrics.org/16530-Linkin-Park.html

What I've done,
I'll face myself,
To cross out
What I've become,
Erase myself,
And let go of
What I've done.

For what I've done,
I start again.
And whatever pain may come,
Today this ends,
I'm forgiving...

What I've done,
I'll face myself,
To cross out
What I've become,
Erase myself,
And let go of
What I've done.

What I've done,
Forgiving what I've done

In Between-Linkin Park
Let me apologize to begin with,
Let me apologize for what I’m about to say,
But trying to be genuine was harder than it seemed,
But somehow I got caught up in between.

Let me apologize to begin with,
Let me apologize for what I’m about to say,
But trying to be someone else was harder than it seemed,
But somehow I got caught up in between.

Between my pride and my promise,
Between my lies and how the truth gets in the way,
The things I want to say to you get lost before they come,
The only thing that’s worse than one is none.

Let me apologize to begin with,
Let me apologize for what I’m about to say,
But trying to regain your trust was harder than it seemed,
But somehow I got caught up in between.

Between my pride and my promise,
Between my lies and how the truth gets in the way,
The things I want to say to you get lost before they come,
The only thing that’s worse than one is none,
The only thing that’s worse than one is none.

And I cannot explain to you,
In anything I say or do or plan,
Fear is not afraid of you,
But guilt’s a language you can understand,
I cannot explain to you in anything I say or do,
But hope the actions speak the words they can.

For my pride and my promise,
For my lies and how the truth gets in the way,
The things I want to say to you get lost before they come,
The only thing that’s worse than one is none.

For my pride and my promise,
Between my lies and how the truth gets in the way,
The things I want to say to you get lost before they come.

The only thing that’s worse than one is none. (3x)
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Heh!

I'm so happy today!

Even though I didn't go out with Lau, I went out with yunhua and it was soooo fun!

:D

I got the stuff I wanted too! sweet!

And I'm so happy because yunhua said that I was one of the few people who made her 4 years in secondary school pleasurable! :D yaaaaaaaay! \o/

[feels loved]

:D

I got my new headphones and Jonas brothers CD :O

But the sad thing was that we didnt have enough time to take neos Dx

Hope we can go out again :]

And Lau, you owe me one for scaring me out of my wits into thinking that I left you downstairs for 2 hours...
****
I had the weirdest dream. Laoshi starred in my nightmares X_x...she said that no matter how much effort i put in, [which i really did try my best] my yilunwens still sucked. SHE COMMENTED IN ENGLISH ON ALL MY PAPERS [freaked out] phrases like "tough luck" and "No matter how hard you try, you still won't be able to write it" were on every single yilunwen! [breaks in cold sweat]

I think its a foreshadowing for the chinese paper 1 EOY X_x!!!

AHHHH

I hope no more teachers star in my nightmares anymore Dx
*****
Who wants to go work at toys 'r' us with yh and me? xD

sth to take yr minds off exams

2008-10-08T14:11:00.006+08:00

heh. if they are familiar to you most probably you heard it on 98.7fm already [my current fav radiostation]

JOKE 1:

3 men were each drinking a pint of beer

A fly dropped into each pint of beer

The first guy saw the fly in his beer, so he pushed it away in disgust

The second guy saw the fly in his beer, took it out, and continued drinking the beer as though nothing had happened

What did the last guy do?

He saw the fly in his beer, took it out and put it at the opening of the pint and yelled, "SPIT IT OUT! SPIT IT OUT!"

JOKE 2 [ONLY THE PEOPLE WHO ARE VERY LAME WILL GET THIS]:

An old man who was very rich was also very stingy

One day he went for his usual health check up at the hospital where his best friend who was a doctor worked

After his health check up, he said to his friend, "I won't pay for this health check up because it would be an insult to your profession. However, as your best friend, I would like you to know that you are in my will."

Then his best friend said, "Can I have a look at your prescription again?"

If you don't get it, the doctor means that he wants the old man's prescription so that he can change it to poison and kill him to inherit his will xD
When I first heard it, I laughed so hard that my sis shouted for me to shut up. [heh]

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Omg lah i think even though the math papers were relatively easy, I lost some marks due to careless mistakes...let's hope i don't lose more than 10 marks...

Oh yeah...I don't know if i should buy a DSi or a PSP Lite & Slim/Brite...

I like PSP games but DSi has slightly cooler functions....

A little help here? @_@
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I added my tribute poem [which is also in the Talking about my generations book] to my blog at the side scroller. The inspiration was actually from a manga [yes, very expected] fruits basket, where the mother says, "To leave or be left behind, I wonder which is more painful..."

This poem has added more meaning to my life because a few months back, a cboxer on vnmanga died in a car crash. If you guys noticed, his nick on the cbox is gin, which is why i left "May angels lead you in; gin" on my msn pm for so long...may angels lead you in are actual lyrics and title of a nice song...gin was a nice guy...

weary...

2008-10-07T12:56:00.001+08:00

I don't think I can expect much out of the exams.

The exams were relatively easy and I just had to screw it up.

God, I pray that you will let me finish HC and Maths Paper 2 with no regrets.

If I get all A1s for my subjects, it will be a miracle.

[head palms]

screwed up for the exams...

2008-10-06T22:48:00.003+08:00

ARGH ARGH ARGH I WANNA PUNCH MYSELF IN THE FACE!

I knew that enzymes work in acidic conditions...but then i thought ITS THE MOUTH FOR GOODNESS SAKE IT DOESNT TASTE LIKE ACID [eg vommit that has hydrochloric acid and lime and lemon etc]

What is wrong with me?! Why did i have to change that freaking answer?!

the enzyme works in a 5.6-6.9 range pH in the mouth..so by inference inorder for the enzyme to be reactive with starch and not the acid/s creating the weakly acidic environment salivary amylase must be non-polar (neither acid or base). Also on this site pH is not included in the info sheet on human salivary amylase. The pH range of the mouth is 5.6-6.9 slightly acidic, and the average body temp is 37 deg C- this is the environment in which human amylase is most active.

http://en.allexperts.com/q/Biology-664/pH-mouth.htm

neutral...pH 7...!!!! argh no wonder we dont feel it...

-punches myself in the face-

I forgot what the placenta was and crapped the section C...

arghh
i'll post them up when i have the time

Uplift yourself...you need to

2008-10-05T17:22:00.004+08:00

Since I shared this song with Carolyn, I decided to post it here

Ichirin no Hana - HIGH and MIGHTY COLOR

You are only you, and no one else.
There could never be a replacement for you.
Don't ever wither away, you Lone Flower...

Bathing just perfectly in the sunlight.
It's almost as if you've blossomed from it.
Regretting the place you wished to grow on.
You struggle to get away from it, right?
All the emotions you've spread over the land.
Let them all out!

All your grief and distress, everything I will take in.
So please don't cry, smile for me, you Lone Flower...
Even now, if you wither away like that.
I want to see your innocent self one last time.
I wish to be the strength inside of you!

Even if there comes a time when the whole world becomes your enemy.
I will protect you!

(Rap)
YOU SHOULD NOTICE THAT THERE IS NO OTHER.
YOU SHOULD NOTICE THAT THERE IS NO NEXT TIME.
YOU SHOULD NOTICE THAT THERE IS NO OTHER.
YOU SHOULD NOTICE THAT THERE IS NO NEXT...
TIME NOTICE THAT YOU SHOULD NOTICE THAT.
NOTICE THAT THERE’S NO OTHER.

You are only you, and no one else.
Up until now, and from now on.
Even if there comes a time when the whole world becomes your enemy.
I will protect you, don't ever give up, you Lone Flower...

YOU SHOULD NOTICE THAT THERE IS NO OTHER.
YOU SHOULD NOTICE THAT THERE IS NO NEXT TIME.
YOU SHOULD NOTICE THAT THERE IS NO OTHER.
YOU SHOULD NOTICE THAT THERE IS NO NEXT...
...TIME! ...NOTICE THAT! ...YOU SHOULD NOTICE THAT!
...NOTICE THAT! ...THERE’S NO OTHER...

Yep its a jap song and its from bleach [3rd OP song i think]

next up...Lifehouse's Whatever it takes and You and Me [an old time favourite]

"Whatever It Takes"

A strangled smile fell from your face
What kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know
Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

She said "If we're gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see"
She said "Like it or not it's the way it's gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And give me a break
I'll keep us together, I know you deserve much better

But remember the time I told you the way that I felt
That I'd be lost without you and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
and believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

"You And Me"

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

One of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive

Still muggng for Lit and bio...ahh so scared >_>"!

Zombified

2008-09-30T23:04:00.006+08:00

All I can say is that I'm totally screwed for all my exams.

Never finished both Geog and Hist paper...if i get an A1 for both subjects is a miracle...

And lit...don't even think about it.

And yesterday me and carolyn had a nice talk over msn. And it occurred to me that my sister never said a joke straight in my face before. She always tells everything to my brother. The last time we did was most probably one night when I was p5..

I think I must be in denial to think that I have everything in my life in control. Which in fact is a total lie. And with regards to Grace and Carolyn's blog, I totally agree. If everyone never trusted anyone, we'd all be cramming in Woodbridge. Instead of this insane education system. Which is why we all need to depend on each other..no one is as strong as they seem to be. Even if they tell you they are all fine. Cause we're all in denial.

All in all, i think im screwed for the EOYs. Wonder if i'll ever get promoted.

Then there's the thing about being in 3G or 3T and my subj combi..

And my laptop is sort of confiscated...so...I can't post much till the end of exams...

I think something is wrong with me. Seriously. I just thought gall bladder was bile
gladder... >_>"
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Ack, I just realized that i can totally skip chp 1,[most of]5 and 6 for geog!

so that leaves me with only chp 7, GM food and GR!

I might make notes and post them here XD
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Here's a guide on how to download Finalstory:

[note: do not download the full file from their website...kind of impossible since they use megaupload]

1: Go to

2: Download the full setup file from Ancient MS

3: Execute the file setup

4: Download the client file from FinalStory

5: Unzip the client file

6: Copy the Finalstory client into the AncientMS folder

Before that, you have to register on FINALSTORY

yep, happy playing [after the EOYs that is]

I'm lvl 183 now :]
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Sigh...suddenly lost all motivation to study liao...

And I think I'm going to develop a phobia for speaking in class...

And to whoever that I daoed/emoed to, sorry..kinda tired and feeling low..

Reminiscence.

I still remember the old faraway primary school days, when it used to be only the few of us staying back. Sarah and Samantha were best friends, and so i usually tagged along since no one else stays back during primary school.
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Samantha: "Hey Zhi, who's your best friend?"

Me: "Uh..."

Sarah: "You must have a best friend! Everyone has a best friend."

Me: "Um...[after much hesitation]God?"

Well...thinking back...I think I answered them that way because I really didn't know what to say. What exactly is a 'best friend'? What defines the criteria of a 'best friend'? Who really is my 'best friend'?

zzz why am I remembering this all of a sudden?

Because I suddenly felt very stupid in history..

Thank goodness recess was right after history, I think I would have died if the next lesson was LA or Chinese...

I guess I'm wondering how I got into SBC huh?

awkward silence...

2008-09-24T20:20:00.007+08:00

Have you ever felt weird if no one's talking?

And how sometimes some people start to avoid you or brush your comments aside...

okay maybe for the latter its more of feeling hurt emotionally than weird..

So you try to keep the person entertained and joke more to fill the silence, but only to run out of stuff to say...and then it returns to the awkward silence again..and maybe find yourself being thought as "weirdo/loser/lame/shut up" [the list goes on...] which is the exact opposite of the goal you are trying to achieve and the person has a bad impression of you.

Then the person starts to avoid you and you get more hurt and down...

I don't know but I don't like silence. Or maybe that's just me. Which brings me to the conclusion that music is STILL the soul of [my] life(:
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Today, during Bio, while copying Bio corrections diligently [as usual], Mrs Cheong said something about fertilizers when the question she was referring to was the plant question. Then Charlotte and Grace burst out in laughter and I was like huh? Then Mrs Cheong said that it wasn't THAT kind of fertilizATION...and I still didn't get the joke [I was thinking why was plant fertilizers so funny?]. Then Grace told me then I finally got it [heh, maybe I'm still quite innocent? xP]
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During Geog, Mrs Tang was really funny! I think I will always remember this even when I grow old and [hopefully not] turn bald. "Desperation is the mother of all inventions" Hahaha xD. Then I heard all the variations that came from misunderstanding [like information ;P] which made it funnier [heh]

When she went through the neurological effects the Hong Kong Red Tide had on animals, I was trying very very hard to imagine cats shrieking and jumping into the sea to drown for no rhyme or reason and failed. I don't know how cats shriek, which leaves my imagination high and dry...or thinking about birds randomly falling from the sky [lol?]

Which reminds me of the time when a bird [sparrow?] got smashed on my dad's windscreen on the highway. The bird was flying in the perpendcular direction of the highway and never realized it got smacked...the body looked very smashed and liquid started oozing from the bird? [shudders] Then my dad just shrugged and cleaned the windscreen with the wiper...
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Just now, I was looking at Monday's DL [couldn't find it yesterday] and I saw one of my favourite songs as the top download! -squeals-

The Man that can't be moved by the script

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move,
Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand,
Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am,
Some try to hand me money they don't understand,
I'm not...broke I'm just a broken hearted man,
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do,
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Policeman says son you can't stay here,
I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year,
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows,
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go.

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

People talk about the guy
Who's waiting on a girl...
Oohoohwoo
There are no holes in his shoes
But a big hole in his world...
Hmmmm

and maybe I'll get famous as man who can't be moved,
And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news,
And you'll come running to the corner...
Cos you'll know it's just for you

I'm the man who can't be moved
I'm the man who can't be moved...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
[Repeat in background]

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag not I'm not gonna move.

The Man Who Cant Be Moved - The Script

yay! I might listen to their other song we cry by the same artist. they look like potential favourites ;)

I have yet to finish notes for all my subjects T_T I hope I finish them soon!

[scurries away to start on Geography pollution]

Is it just me or there is nothing to study for chapters 1 and 5[only a bit of the end] of the textbook for Geography?

You have been disconnected from the line

2008-09-23T20:37:00.012+08:00

sigh...

darn tired today...

nearly fell asleep in class!zzz

haha if there were no humour in class i would have died!

During bio, while counting the time till recess, charlotte's random question got me interested in class again [hehz]

@char: where in the world did you hear 'bumfluff' from? LOL!
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then during physics [an absolute subject for 'A' levels] mr lim was so funny!
when he did the electrocuted action i almost died laughing!
then when charlotte asked him to do it again, i had almost wanted to ask him for an encore too [which added to the humour, started to laugh all over again when i tried stopping]

did i ever mention that i like our physics group(:?

and of course, i love 2g too :D

wa, tmr have to meet up for guides to collect 5 boxes of unsold cookies :X [hope i don't forget]

who wants guides cookies can get from me (:

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Song of the day-The Last Goodnight's Pictures of you, pictures of me [which i will use for the credits for this year's class vid, don't forget to pass me all your photos :D]:

"Pictures Of You"

This is the clock upon the wall
This is the story of us all
This is the first sound of a newborn child,
Before he starts to crawl
This is the war that's never won
This is a soldier and his gun
This is the mother waiting by the phone,
Praying for her son

[Chorus]
Pictures of you, pictures of me
Hung upon your wall for the world to see
Pictures of you, pictures of me
Remind us all of what we used to be

There is a drug that cures it all
Blocked by the governmental wall
We are the scientists inside the lab,
Just waiting for the call
This earthquake weather has got me shaking inside
I'm high up and dry

[Chorus]

Confess to me, every secret moment
Every stolen promise you believed
Confess to me, all that lies between us
All that lies between you and me

We are the boxers in the ring
We are the bells that never sing
There is a title we can't win no matter
How hard we might swing

[Chorus]

[Chorus Repeat]

go listen, its nice(:

Pictures of You - The Last Goodnight

@lau & enqi: vk 43 is out! 50 pages that I read in the com lab [heh]

@grace: omg i'm so sorry! normally i don't feel my phone vibrating so i never realise i have missed calls/smses! >_< sorry for pangseh-ing you in the library! me and jelly went back to class after she went to the toilet. we waited for you in the bookshop at first :X

after the EOYs, who wants to play finalstory? [maple private server]
crazy drops and exp >_>"

i better start studying and sleep early...if not i will seriously not register anything in my bed tomorrow and zone out...

[argh now the blog cant post 4...-_-"]

Why is life so tiring...

2008-09-22T18:09:00.007+08:00

I try not to think about the various mistakes and stumbles I made recently...the more you think about it, the more stupid your mistakes seem and all the more you wish you didn't do it...which ends up in a paradox and gets you nowhere but crying.

Have you ever been alone in an empty room? When you lie on the bed and you can't sleep. There's this loud buzzing noise that is so loud that once you close your eyes it gets even louder, so you can't sleep...

Which is why terms such as silent screams, screaming silence, loud silence and the variations come about.

I can quite relate to the Jonas Brothers song:

Hold on
We don't have time left to regret (hold on)
It will take more than common sense (hold on)
So stop your wondering take a stand (hold on)
There's more to life than just to live (hold on)

'cause an empty room can be so loud
It's too many tears to drown them out
So hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on

One single smile a helping hand
It's not that hard to be a friend
So don't give up stand 'til the end
There's more to life than just to live

'cause an empty room can be so loud
It's too many tears to drown them out
So hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on

When you love someone
And they break your heart
don't give up on love
Have faith, restart
Just hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on

When it falls apart
And your feeling lost
All your hope is gone
don't forget to hold on, hold on

'cause an empty room can be so loud
It's too many tears to drown them out
So hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on

When you love someone
And they break your heart
don't give up on love
Have faith, restart
Just hold on, hold on

'cause an empty room can be so loud
It's too many tears to drown them out
So hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on

When you love someone
And they break your heart
don't give up on love
Have faith, restart
Just hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on

...which is where the blog name comes from.

So whenever you're down and lonely, don't ever stay alone in a room to let your mind wander. Remember that music is the soul of life :)

Oh, did I forget to mention how my brother is so irritating? Always backing up on his promises zzz...-_-"

And today's bio was so gory...I think I got seriously freaked out...I never knew abortion was like that X_x I don't want to even imagine or find out if a fetus can feel at such a young age [esp. since Mrs Cheong said that the fetus can sense the invasion of territory and moves away to avoid the metal instrument]

Ack, better go study. As well as clear all the darn accumulating homework Dx

I might be 乖 and do the ”近朱者赤，近墨者黑”/”铁杵磨出绣花针”essay since i have some research done :D
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UPDATED LIST OF MELAMINE CONTAMINATED PRODUCTS!

Products Recalled - Melanine Contaminated

BRAND II ITEM DESC
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2 DOVE H/NUT ALM & RAISIN CHOC
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15 Dreyers Toast Almond Ice Cream 887ml
16 Dreyers Toast Almond Ice Cream 887ml
17 Dreyers Vanilla Ice Cream 887ml
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37 Koala Cocoa Biscuit 40g
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81 NO FRILLS WAFER CHOCOLATE
82 NO FRILLS WAFER PEANUT
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85 Orion Tiramisu 138g
86 Orion Tiramisu 138g
87 PEI TIAN CREAM BISCUIT
88 Rabbit Milk Sweet 150g
89 SILANG NATURAL OAT CRACKER
90 Snicker Candies Funsize 240g
91 Snicker Candies Funsize 240g
92 SNICKERS PEANUT CHOCOLATE%
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95 TAKE ONE BABY BITE CK VG
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97 Vitasoy Chocolate Drink 4s 125ml
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99 Vitasoy Melon Soya Bean Milk 4s 125ml
100 Vitasoy Melon Soya Bean Milk 4s 125ml
101 Vitasoy Q Soya Milk 4s 125ml
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105 Yili Hi Cal Low Fat Milk 1L
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110 Yili Pure Milk 6s 250ml
111 Youcan Masterbean Multipack
112 Youcan Passion Multipack
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115 Youcan Traditional Sesame Multipack 4s
116 Youcan Unusual Multipack 4s

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Sigh...last time China's problem with the 黑心 toys, then the 黑心 cartoon coloured bath towels...then right after the Olympics this happened...millions would have lost faith in China products just when we thought better of them >_>"